winter tears

    in composition class last semester, we had to write some poems. i really enjoyed it so here's a ballad i wrote about my dad's accident, which happened 16 years ago. it isn't perfect by any means, but i'm trying to learn more about writing poems.

winter tears

by jess ann

One fateful day in the middle of December,

Something happened that we'll always remember.

My dad had an accident in our front lawn,

And life as we knew it was forever gone.

It was snowy and cold when help came,

They loaded him up and sped away.

His life of walking would never be the same,

Because of the accident on that fateful day.

The next couple months were quite a blur,

As the days came and went,

They were not sure,

What all this even really meant.

Would he live? How would life be?

What did this mean for my parents and me?

God had a plan for our family,

Even though it was hard to see.

The earth kept turning

As our world kept churning.

God healed my dad,

And we were ever so glad.

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jess ann

hey there....update

     hey.....wow. it's been a little while. a lot has happened since i last blogged! a lot has changed. i think i've even changed some as a person. i'm living in kansas & still going to school up there. sooo i've wanted to blog for awhile, but i'm the world's biggest procrastinator & so it didn't happen. i'm going to try to blog more again. more about my life, my thoughts on life, & my random writings. i love writing poems & so you might see those now & then.....still learning though. a couple weeks ago i turned 17. whoa. i kinda feel old haha. right now, it doesn't seem like 17 is that old, but looking back to when i was younger, this seemed like such an old age. i'm not prepared to be an adult next year haha. so looking back on my 17 short years, here are a few things i've learned:

- life is short. treasure it. live it to the fullest.
- sometimes people are only meant to be in your life for a short time, & that's ok.
- no matter what situation you're in, it's never too impossible for God.
- often things will work out.
- don't be scared about what people think. ya know the very cheesy quote, "those who matter don't mind & those who do mind don't matter." (i could write a whole post on this, maybe i will in the future)
- don't be afraid to say what you actually think.
- don't change just to fit in.
- people actually aren't judging you as much as you think.
- throw your all into friendships; without fear for the future. for the time being, those people are in your life for a reason. (something i've recently learned)
- worrying about something isn't going to make that situation change; it'll only change your mood.
- just enjoy life. it gets said a lot but really, it's true.

so that's just a couple of things i've learned. i still have so much to learn & i can't wait to fall flat on my face multiple times in life. ;D

- jess ann

letting go & trusting God

letting go of every single dream

i lay each one down at Your feet

every moment of my wondering

never changes what You see

i’ve tried to win this war I confess

my hands are weary i need Your rest

Mighty Warrior, King of the fight

no matter what i face You’re by my side

(chorus)

when You don’t move the mountains

i’m needing You to move

when You don’t part the waters

i wish i could walk through

when You don’t give the answers

as i cry out to You

i will trust, i will trust

i will trust in You

truth is You know what tomorrow brings

there’s not a day ahead You have not seen

so in all things be my life and breath

i want what You want Lord and nothing less

(chorus)

when You don’t move the mountains

i’m needing You to move

when You don’t part the waters

i wish i could walk through

when You don’t give the answers

as i cry out to You

i will trust, i will trust

i will trust in You

i will trust in You

(bridge)

You are my strength and comfort

You are my steady hand

You are my firm foundation

the Rock on which i stand

your ways are always higher

your plans are always good

there’s not a place where i’ll go

you’ve not already stood

(chorus)

when You don’t move the mountains

i’m needing You to move

when You don’t part the waters

i wish i could walk through

when You don’t give the answers

as i cry out to You

i will trust, i will trust

i will trust in You

i will trust in You

i will trust in You

i will trust in You

trust in you - lauren daigle

sometimes it's hard to let go & trust God. it seems like we should maybe do something to fix it & it's hard having patience & just waiting. but sometimes waiting is the best option. it's when we learn patience & that God is in control. no matter where we are in life, God will take care of us if we just trust Him. it's always our best option!

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-jess ann